Welcome! Allow me to introduce a bit about myself and this blog.

The writer

My name is Ayla. I am a fifteen-year-old ENFJ residing in Canada.

I like writing, reading, and playing the ukulele. I am a huge theatre geek and musical theatre fan. I like exploring abandoned things and being in large expanses of fields or tall forests, sunlight streaming in between the leaves. I'm very inquisitive and enjoy learning as much as I can about any wide variety of topics. I spend a lot of time analyzing dreams and tarot cards with my friends. I've been a member of Girl Guides of Canada for nine years.

I've never succeeded at actually writing a novel, but I have many, many unfinished projects that I still hold dear to my heart. Lately, I've been much more into writing mediocre songs about the teenage experience and about whatever literature we're being forced to read in English class.

My favourite books are the Chaos Walking series by Patrick Ness, More Than This by Patrick Ness, the Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling, The Humans by Matt Haig, The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger, and Macbeth by William Shakespeare.

My favourite television shows and movies are Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency, Glee, Doctor Who, The Chronicles of Narnia, and The Edge of Tomorrow. 

I know a lot of fun facts about Roald Dahl! I am neutral good. Autumn is my favourite season because everything about it smells so absolutely delicious and it's the perfect weather to tolerate for having adventures outside as well as staying home, doing absolutely nothing.

I'm creative and I feel everything deeply. I'm sort of an enigma because I search for meaning everywhere and in everything I do but I also can be really nihilistic and claim that life has no meaning. It really depends on the day and what sort of mood I'm in.

Through the Fog

When I first started my blog four years ago, it was meant as a place for me to express some of my thoughts as I was entering high school, to share some of my writing, and to hopefully make online friends that share some common interests. Originally named Amazing Case of Wanderlust, it was about my desire to travel places and do exciting things. I still have a very strong urge to travel, an urge that has only gotten stronger as more time has passed and as I've gotten to experience little tastes of the outer world, but for a long time I've been spanning away from those initial intentions. I've realized that though that old blog name still represents a part of me, I've moved on. I haven't been motivated to write for the blog with that name because it no longer resonates as much with me and my current life path.

The idea of fog reminds me of nature and my favourite type of weather: that slightly warm and humid, damp and drizzly type of day that can either make you want to adventure or stay very far inside. Fog calms me. It reminds me of good days where I've felt free.

Walking through fog gives one an eery sense. You can stand somewhat close to someone or something and not get the impression that they're there. You're often left directionless, not sure where to go next to find what you're looking for. However, walking through fog gives you a mystical, magical, hopeful feeling along with the eeriness. It is an oddity, leading with a sense of adventure and excitement as well as a touch of fear.

I feel that this is the perfect analogy for adolescence. Not knowing what's to come, but being excited to explore it and venture through. Navigating fog can be difficult because you can only see what's directly in front of you, but it usually leads to discoveries and adventure.

As I travel on this journey through adolescence and youth, I hope to continue the use of this blog as a means of expressing my profound wishes, personal feelings, and naive thoughts about growing up. I think we all deal with the same things but sometimes feel as if we cannot share. I think that there are universal truths that exist within all of us about the way we view ourselves and the world, and I hope to explore those truths and come to terms with them and the interconnectedness of all things.

I hope you enjoyed learning a little bit more about me. I'll offer tea if you stay a while.